my ex husband showed up. That was the most difficult ghost from
my past to deal with. When he asked me if I "wanted a divorce
or an annulment" he never gave me a reason and I was too
crushed to ask. All I knew was that I had been rejected by someone
who vowed to love me forever so there must have been something
inherently unlovable about me. I lived under that assumption and
the insecurities it created for over sixteen years.
my ex husband and I finally talked through what had happened to
our marriage, sixteen years after the fact, we both discovered
that the reasons we divorced were reasons that never existed.
It was sad. We were that couple whose story didn't make it past
the black moment. I thought he wanted out, he thought I wanted
out and neither of us was brave enough to fight like a real hero
or heroine might. We'd failed and it turns out we both fought
demons because of it. The tragedy of this story is almost Russian.
can look back now and know that the path these relationships set
me on brought me here. I don't think any of those men would fall
in love with who I am today (I'm tougher for what I've experienced
and have a lot more fight in me) but it is important to me to
be able to be friends with them, to make peace with my past.
simple fact is that I've loved each of them and they've all played
a huge part in who and where I am today.
here's the real story:
I loved passionately and was hurt terribly but I didn't stop loving
and eventually found my happily ever after.
epilogue would go something like this:
In time they all came back and peace was found. Friendship grew
from our shared pasts and we carried only the happy memories forward.
There was no more baggage.
I loved each of them but none so much as the one I'd finally found.
The one who loved me back just as much as I loved him. The one
who gave me white roses because he knew I liked them best. The
one who supported me in achieving each of my dreams even when
I tried to reach them all at the same time. The one who vowed
"for better or worse" and proved it.
was a long time coming, but I found my happily ever after and
so will Sarah Stevens.
may have to kiss as many frogs as I did though. You'll just have
to read to find out.
on over to my website at www.LisaPietsch.com
where tequila and coffee are food groups and we can talk about